Sona

Sun was about to set, and like all other evenings this one was also same but the night that was going to follow it was different, it was not the same for me as today I am going to become a prostitute from a girl. I will no long be referred as a girl by anyone. At the age of 15 and 3 years from attaining puberty today I am going lose my virginity to a man whom I have not seen till now.

I am Rivanah and this is my story. It may disgust you at some point but I don’t care because you are only reading it but I will be going through it all.

I knew this day will come and it was my biggest nightmare but no more, as it will be a reality for me from now on. We the girls who are born here in sonagachi know what our future will be.

My mother who was also a prostitute died few years ago due to some sexually transmitted disease. She always told me that she will never allow anyone to make me work in this shit and build a good future for me but since she died the hope inside me also died with her. There is no place in world I could be other than here.

I wish this evening never ends and I could live my whole life in this. People here say that I don’t have to fear as I will get habitual to this soon and I have to live this life so why not accept this happily.

Few more hours and I will be a working woman just like many other girls who work to fulfil their needs the only difference between them and me would be that they sell ideas or products and I will be selling my body. I know I can’t change anything but still I hoped that my first time should have been with someone, whom I know or I was comfortable with.

This maybe weird for you, you must be thinking that at the age of 15 I am thinking of having sex with someone, so, welcome to my world where when a child is born he/she learn to say mother later and sex first.

Now, you must be thinking that why I am being philosophical at this time but no one can understand what is going through my mind my heart right now, no one.

 I want to capture this evening in words as these are my last free moments. I don’t know if ever in life I will be as free as I am now. Maybe I will be happy in future living a life of prostitute maybe not but at this moment I am a girl and I am proud of myself.

Now I have to go as it’s time for me to get ready for the exhibition where some of you people only will come and one of you will buy me for a night.

I hope I get a chance to continue my story.

Rivanah

Craziness, Obsession... Love !!

People say I am Crazy, Some say that I am obsessed with her.. but the truth is that "I Love her".
They say how can you love someone whom you have never met, who is not real.. bla bla bla...

I don't think that they know what love truly is. Love is not a physical need, Love is an inner peace. If thinking about her 24*7 gives me peace, then yeah I Love her.
If dreaming about her all night long, gives me happiness.. then Yes I am In Love with her.
It's not craziness, it's not obsession.
I know I can never get her, But that's not the way I want things to be.

You Love someone, you get her... and you live a happy life. But what after that.. will there be not a day when you will fight with her, scold her or break up with her for literally selfish reasons.
You will, everyone does... at least I  will not have to travel through all these stages of mental trauma.

I am happy being in Love with her, knowing that fact that she can never be mine. In fact just meeting her for once also is a damn big deal for me.

But that's the beauty of my Love. Love does not mean to always achieve what you want. It simply means Loving, no matter if she loves you or not, no matter she knows your bloody existence in this world or not, I will keep loving you till my last breath.

Ishq di mere mitra, pehchaan ki...
Mit jaae jadon, zidd apnaan di....!!


#DaeMon #ILDP

Ridzee.com a new shopping destination.

Hello Everyone,

Today I want to share with you a new link of our very own, new online shopping website www.ridzee.com .

Tere Bina

Insaan sochta kya he, aur pata kya he.. Socha tha zindagi guzar jaygi tujhse ladte jhagarte... tere ruthne aur mere manane me, Per dekh meri takdeer kaha le aai mujhe... 

Na pass mere tu he na tera saaya... akela ho gaya hu me kitna shyd y tujhe nazar nhi aaya..

Socha tha teri zulfo ki chaav me beet jaegi raina... per tere bina ab mujhe akele hi h rehna... 

Log khte h ki ladki ek jati h to dusri aati he... Per meri zindagi to ek tujhme hi simat jati he...

Me chahu to tujhe paa lu wapis jese tu thi meri kabhi... per paane me wo khushi kaha jo teri aankho me dikhti h mujhe mere bina... 

Your Love is waiting.

DaeMOn

Mystery of Life..!!

Life.... a puzzle, easy to understand but hard enough to be solved... don’t know what it will show us in the coming moment.. It was far behind my worst nightmare that she will be getting married to someone else while at the same time I was planning how to propose her.. but that's the best part of life... that it's totally unpredictable... what we think is not really that is going to happen. And what is going to happen is impossible to think of.

Who knew that the journey that I took to divert my mind from my lost desire would eventually end up making me meet my true love... so that one day she too leaves me... if this is called life... then I can say that my life really sucks. 

People say that if u love someone then let her go... if she comes back then she's yours... but what if she never come back... it is from there.. Where my story starts... my wait… for my love...

Your Love is waiting..!!

DaeMon

Love Radio

If u love someone then go and tell him/her, don’t keep waiting for the right moment or thinking that what if he/she doesn't love me or rejects me…!!

Let me tell u a story…

Once there was a girl who was committed to a boy for few years but due to long distance relationship their relation was not going that well and they were just doing formality now of talking to each other daily… there were no more sweet talks or fights because even they didn't realize that they were not in love and since now they were in different college the girl had a friend in his college who secretly loved her but she knew about it and never said anything as she was still committed with his bf. Soon, time passes by and she starts developing feelings for his friend who loved her, his friend also knowing that she was committed to someone else never brought his feelings before her.

One fine day when girl was on a phone call with his bf, he came to her and asked if she wanted to spend some time with him as he was getting bored alone, but as she was on phone call with his bf she denied and he went away. Few minutes later a girl came to her and told her something that made her heart skip a beat and suddenly her phone fell on the floor. She rushed out of the room and straight away took an auto to city hospital. The girl had told her that his friend has met with a severe accident and he is admitted to city hospital.

As soon as she reached hospital she searched for him, and soon she located him in ICU. Ward and found out that he is no more. She was numb after hearing that, she went into depression for some time as she was in love with him, yes, finally she realized that she loved him, but now she was too late, now, nothing can be done and she has to face this ugly truth.… 

Somehow time passed, now, she has came out of that trauma, she tries to live happily because she knew that if he was still alive, he would have wanted her to be happy, so she does everything now that she knew he liked to do.. Like watching action movies, which she didn't liked back then, watching football matches etc etc. But still one thing haunts her till now…

A question still keeps going in her mind. That, what if??

What if, she had expressed her feelings before to his friend? If only she had expressed her feelings before then maybe he would have not died. He would have never left the compound if she would have agreed to talk to him and had not denied his offer because of his bf. And I know this question will haunt her throughout her life.

So, guys moral of the story is, if u love someone, Then go Let her Know… and rest leave it up to God, he will take care of the rest..

All the Best.

P.S.:- She broke up with his bf after this incident.

DaeMon

a

The One You Cannot Have

                          If I could have anyone I choose as my 'forever friend'/ 'life partner', I would choose my best friend Ridhima, as she is the only girl with whom I can imagine my life. Looking back as long as I remember, she’s the only one who has been with me, in my good as well as bad times. How should I describe her, for me she’s one of the most beautiful girl in the world, her cute smile, her tiny nose(slightly twisted), light pink colored lips and  the way she goes to any extent to make me feel good when I am tensed, all make me fell in love with her daily.  

                           

                           She was my first crush and my first love too. Though she still doesn't know that I love her, as, I have never told her about how I feel for her because I know that we cannot be together ever. I also know when I will let her know about my feelings she will totally understand me but then things will not be same, things will get complicated, as she loves someone else and is committed to him from a long time, from way before I first met her. Though I love her, I still don’t want to tell her about my feelings as I want her to be happy always and if she’s happy being my best friend, I will be her friend Forever.

P.S. She knows that no one can keep her happy more than me, not even the one whom she loves, but still sometimes you don’t get what you deserve. Maybe she’s not meant to be mine. For me she’s the one I cannot have... :(

Rohit Sukhwani